A Word I Love

For the past few years, I have chosen a WORD FOR THE YEAR. Although, this isn't necessarily my "official word" for the year, it somehow still feels very significant for 2018.

FAITH.

For quite a while now, I have been struggling with anxiety when I go to bed, and when I wake up. Without any effort at all, my mind gets bombarded with every negative possibility of my future, and every regret, betrayal, and resentment from my past. It's like I go through a whole grieving process every time I'M TRYING TO REST! I've had enough. It needs to stop. Now.

As I've studied, prayed, and gathered information on all sorts of inspirational topics. In conclusion, I have a real issue with BELIEVING THAT ALL I'VE WORKED TOWARDS WILL PAY OFF. God has made so many promises to me. He's promised to never leave or forsake me. He's promised that I will reap if I don't faint. He's promised that I will receive if I just ask. He's promised that I will be filled if I hunger and thirst after righteousness. I could go on.

The simple question lies here...Do I believe it? That's faith.

Fear tells me that I've worked and slaved for nothing. Fear tells me there's no pay off for anything I've strived for. Fear tells me that no one truly loves me and will ultimately betray me. Fear tells me that when I give it my best, I'm going to fail. Fear tells me that no matter what I sow, I will reap sorrow and ruin.

Faith tells me that I've worked and slaved for the glory of God, and that there is a reward in EVERYTHING I've done for Him. Faith tells me that there are people out there living on my same frequency, and that they too strive for love, light, and integrity. Faith tells me that when I give it my best, I'm going to succeed. Faith redefines success for me. Faith tells me that no matter what, my honest, loving actions will be met with fulfillment, purpose, hope, and loving relationships.

FEAR MAKES ME WANT TO GIVE UP.

FAITH MAKES ME WANT TO PRESS ON.


This short video from Joyce Meyer hits the nail on the head...
https://www.facebook.com/joycemeyerministries/videos/10156133726977384/

"God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love, and a sound mind."
"Be not weary in well doing, for in due season we shall reap if we faint not."
"There is no fear in love, for perfect love casts out all fear."
"And hope maketh not ashamed, because the love of God is spread abroad in our hearts."
"And always be ready to give an answer for the hope that lies within you."